|Why yes, I did take this photo, and I am dang proud of it.|
Hey femipeeps. I have a confession to make. I kind of suck at getting work done. I'm in the highest classes, have been on the honor roll all through high school and got a 5 on my AP, yet I have been trying to finish a relatively simple summer math worksheet for about three or four days. Or should I say I've avoided completing a relatively simple summer math worksheet for three or four days. I've always been an improvement driven person (hence the activism), and I've made lists, charts and calendars over the years. I just wanted to put these feelings out into the universe and feel validated.
I love learning, education, and all things intellectual, yet I struggle against procrastination, anxiety and just straight- up not wanting to do the work. My version of "wasting time" is reading feminist articles and artsy blogs, but it doesn't mean I'm being any more productive than the next person. I just need to cut through the arbitrary stuff and get it done so I can spend more time writing on this blog and preparing for Winyan (the fabulous feminist club I founded, but more on that later), and engaging in activities I actually enjoy. On an informational level I know what I need to do (ie. NOT GET ON THE FREAKING INTERNET WHEN I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DOING HOMEWORK), yet I can't seem to listen to reason. I'm trying to get this all figured out before school starts because 11th grade is supposed to be Hell and I want to be as efficient as possible. I want to learn how to plow through the BS to get to the good parts, and actually have intentional free time, not just stay up late because I kept going on the computer.
Maybe if I write down my guidelines outside of my own notebook, I'll actually keep them. The internet is public and permanent y'all, so this is incentive.
Ten Things I Want to Do to Improve Myself:
Love you guys (is anyone really reading this?),